lyrics

Hey, someone I know and work with musically posts blogs of his lyrics. This sounded to me like a good idea. I am appropriating it. Here you are; bajskorv + savage ideal. comment as you like.

Blood Like Rain/ Nihilism

Politicians telling lies
The culture breaks
Resentment down to size
Some things drag on and on
Some times faith misplaced
Our spirits raped

Maybe the doubts were right
Maybe never looked too hard inside
Maybe we'd better quit
Just fuck the world
And blow it all to bits

We understand the fighting
And all the things we see
Even though they never tell you
One word without honesty

In desperation
Lost our hope
No consolation
Broken Homes
Don't pay attention
Selling war
Is suffocation
You were born for

Things are just getting worse
And you feel so mutilated
Don't believe a word they say
Feels like there's no escape

Visions are getting worse
And you feel so mutilated
Don't believe a word they say
In a world with no escape.


(this song was written about military recruiters and how they lie to people and cynically exploit the fact that education, health care, child care, and many other things are neglected while the military budget dwarfs them all and grows without end. People are negelected and condemmend to a miserable future while the government's indifferent their whole life. Suddenly they turn of military age and all of a sudden the government's there to promise them money and heathcare if only they'd fight and perhaps die in a a stupid war that never should have started and probably will never end. Later as perpetual war became more and more of a seemingly immovable reality and more and more of us became desensatized to both it as well as violence and corruption generally; I added a more nihilist first verse to articulate more clearly what I and millions of others were thinking: Fuck it. Fuck everyone. There is no end to this madness. And fuck me for succomming to negativity.)


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No Escape



I see a life ahead
Each day more news of the dead
Lies politics
Alternatives
My faith drains
Like the holes in my brain

I think every day about
Going insane
I drive for hours at night
In the rain
I'm begging I'm crying
I'm asking I'm dying
I'm loosing my faith
I'm loosing my ways

I'm lost at the end of days
I made a mess I shouldn't have made
Alone in the world
we're all enslaved
And the future
Promises more of the same

A negative
Non-representative
Illustrated mess
of the world
I knew I hated
World that I knew
I change
My life
Fit to slave

Takes you in and
Change your brain
Slave, slave, slave away
Slave, slave, salve away away



Do we surrender
To our vices
Do we escape into
Fantesies and magazines
Meditate alone
Laugh at a club
Laugh like a fish
going extinct

Staring at the business end
Of a shotgun
Racing in a blind alley
Cutting off everybody
Looking out for number one
Fuck the rest you're having fun
Trying not to interfere
Global warming your career

Fall in love and start a life
Get a husband get a wife
Settling for less
Managing the best
What do you hate
What is safe
What do you hate
What is safe

Living a life
That's a lie
Nobodys' fate
Becomming the things you hate
Tell your kids
Its the best
They have to pray
To a god that doesn't exist
To a god that's fucking dead
Your crutch
Your weakness
A world that's fucking dead


How do you fight when you're barely alive
How do you cry when there's no one left inside
Where do you run its the same everywhere
Where do you fit in the world doesn't care

I see a life ahead
I see what I must do
You have no will to live
This time I'm cutting through

The next time
The last time



(I was feeling very overworked and socially isolated and depressed to a rather unhealthy extent. The only remedy I knew for this was to throw your self into work all day long and try and get your mind off your home life. This helped but it wasn't really working. Then I tried eating the drugs my friends at work used to get them through the day. This didn't work either. So I wrote a song about suicide. Before it was released a very close friend of mine committed suicide and made me think more about the whole process. I re-wrote some parts to make it seem less like it was glamorizing the whole thing and more just trying to articulate these feelings and discuss them. The idea is this: I see the negativity and problems in everything. Politics is of course fucked up and evil. It's demoralizing; and I'm losing my faith in my ability to contribute to any real change. You loose sight of your successes and can only see where you've made mistakes. You begin to feel that you yourself are part of the problem. But just trying to hide in your job is no answer either. You're still bombarded by the news, and a life in most medial or even semi-skiled working
class jobs is hardly worth living: slaving away all day just to make ends meet; working for fat cats; being fed chicken wings and rice right before you work for 16 hours serving lobster and filet mingnons. So how can you escape? You can't. The club is stupid; full of idiots poisoning their bodies catching std's and incapable of having a meaningful conversation about anything. Housewives more calming hiding
behind supermarket magazines is equally pathetic and repulisive. Even the outdoors can't save you: you can climb the highest mountain and there's still C-130's flying between the ridges practicing to go to Iraq. Blowing your head of with a gun and driving full throttle down the blind alley of corporate 'fuck-the-world-I'm-here-to-make-a-profit-and-climb-a-ladder' are two approaches to the same end. You'll kill yourself either way; by stress at you're job you'll have a heart attack maybe a few months after you've finally gotten your promotion. Giving up on ambition and just hiding in your lovers' arms is also no solution. All goes as planned and you've produced children who now you've condemmed to another futile life of pain. There is no escape and the status quo is intolerable. WHAT DO YOU DO?)


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Don't Stop Screaming



Avail
A lie
Dirty
Finally
Reach
Across
The wave
Ice
Of ice
Back
Quickly
Painfully
All the way
Pain
Penetrate
Corruption
Whole thing


Hey yah
Light
Listen
Now
Pain
Light
Running off
Pain
You
At
Believe
Annihlate
All eyes
Smiling
At me
All eyes
Painfully
Painfully
Painfully
Pain
All eyes

DOn't stop
Stop
Stop
Stop
Don't
Sick
Stop
Don't
Await
Don't
Stop
A lie
A lie
Alive
Don't
Stop
Painfully
A lie
Screaming
Cry
Try
Try
Try
Painfully
Don't Stop
Screaming
Don't
Try
Try
Try
Try
Try


Awake
Alive
Trying
Finally
Its
Across
The way
Ice
Eyes
Back
Finally
Painfully
Alive
Pain
Penetrate
Illusion
Fell asleep
Pain
Back
quickly
slowly


Always
back
onward
Try
A lie
You're in
Only
A
A lie
This one
A
Lie
Desperately
Across
A lie
Do or die
Run away
Endless
Crawl
Asleep
A sea
Demonstration
Along
Across
Finally
Break
Break it
Believe



(Self explainitory. The pain and difficultly. Nonetheless; responding to and indulging in only to your own subjective reactions to universal social reality is; even though genuinely painful and angst-ridden; an ultimately narcassistic excercise. Don't stop screaming. Don't run away to crawl asleep in the bottom of the ocean. You have to try.)